Melancholy Madness

Monday we had our first AWARE planning group meeting. It was highly enlightening. We had about 11 of us there and we all shared our reasons why we were there. They were all valid and we all share a common goal to get the word across that depression, suicide, etc is a problem and we can be a resource to help. You may have seen on FB posts the poll we have on Village Living. Please take a moment to fill it out. It will help us immensely in our goals to help the community with what you need us to do.
When I shared my reasons, I state that my goal was to make the public aware of what goes through the mind of someone with so much despair in their hearts that they feel they have no option but to end it all. That is so not the answer. I am going to share with you a poem I wrote years ago when I was in the depths of despair. Take into account this is not where I am now. Adele, if you read this, I am doing well emotionally right now:) This is part of my job in this blog to make you AWARE of the feelings your loved one may be going through. If you do not battle depression, it is so hard to understand. I hope this will help.
Melancholy Madness

Loosen your grip on her soul
Let the light shine in again
Let the warmth flow in and thaw
The hardness away

Bring back that funny little girl
Whose laughter spreads to all she knows
Her smile can radiate to all
Who want to be within her reach

Melancholy Madness disappear
Release the beauty we hold so dear
You suppress her soul from all of us
Who know the truth and dare to care

She desires the strength and will to climb
Out of the mud thick hole she finds herself in
Just one step at a time..
The thought is even overwhelming to her

She is so lost, alone and wants to give up
Her friends say otherwise, but
That Melancholy Madness beats
Her down overpowering her allies

Melancholy Madness disappear
Release the beauty we hold so dear
You suppress her soul from all of us
Who know the truth and dare to care

She prays to God to heal her spirit.
Faith, she is told, the only way out of this sinking ship
She prays so hard only to feel
The tears of helplessness flowing down her cheeks.

How much more of this can he take?
This Melancholy Madness getting to him too.
He wants to yell into her face.
Snap out of it…you have things to do.

Melancholy Madness disappear
Release the beauty we hold so dear
You suppress her soul from all of us
Who know the truth and dare to care

Life would be so much easier, she tells herself
The burdens of her despair not casting a dark
Shadow over everyone she loves
The pull of a trigger is all she needs

But, its that ounce of love that keeps her alive
Away from the dangers of death that lurk so near
Calling her name like a Siren

Melancholy Madness disappear
Release the beauty we hold so dear
You suppress her soul from all of us
Who know the truth and dare to care.

It’s an uphill battle everyday
That Melancholy Madness lurks around every corner
Waiting for that perfect moment
When vulnerability perseveres

She has so much to live for
She knows that fast and true
So she will fight with every ounce of strength
The battle won for now but the war rages on.

Melancholy Madness disappear
Release the beauty we hold so dear
You suppress her soul from all of us
Who know the truth and dare to care.blog pic

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