Whisper of the Holy Spirit

mockingbird_edited-1-webI joined a writing group of women today and we had to write about the the poem below:

Atticus said to Jem one day, “I’d rather you shot at tin cans in the back yard, but I know you’ll go after birds. Shoot all the bluejays you want, if you can hit ’em, but remember it’s a sin to kill a mockingbird.”
Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird.

The Mockingbird
Mary Oliver

stanza 4:

mimicking and elaborating,
he sings with humor and bravado,
so I have to wait a long time
for the softer voice of his own life

When does one show their true selves? Trudging along to keep up with the rat race that is today’s society? Mimicking those around me, elaborating your personal story to hide behind the mask I believe I want others to see. Deep inside the weight of the world is falling upon me. I hit rock bottom but I smile my way through it. At the bottom, when all is quiet, I hear the song, the softer voice whispering in my ear that I am beautiful in my own right. The Holy Spirit has released me of my old self. I no longer have to hide behind the mask of perfection. The softer voice brings me peace; peace to show the world that I am human, flawed, beautiful. I have been molded into a stunning piece of art to be admired by those around me.
The desire to please others wastes away as I come into my own, finding that they like me better this way. I am vulnerable and tangible, flowing freely through life. True friends come to stand by my side to support me when I fall. I will fall again, but the soft voice will whisper in my ear reminding me that I can stand up on my own.
My self appreciation is like a magnet to others. They want that voice but are afraid to let go and listen. Fear prevents them from stepping off the edge of perceived perfection and become human and flawed. The treadmill of life is moving so fast they are afraid they will crash and burn. If only they could stop for one second and listen to the voice that offers peace and solace to their soul. They will fall but be caught by The Holy Spirit who will soften the blow. The suffering may still exist but I have a safety net now and I can release myself from the fray.

When I think I am the worst mom in the whole world……

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My Inspiration Through Life
Everyone in life will always have one person they look up to. My mom is a huge role model in mine. Her name is Louise Wilson Null but, we call her lulu for short. She is a stay at home mom but, that isn’t all she does. My mom loves to read. One time she read 160 books from Christmas time to March. Also, she loves to exercise. She runs, walks, does yoga, and sometimes a spin class. I will always look up to my mother. She is always reliable, honest, kind, and she helps and supports me in whatever I do, like dance.
Some people say I look like my mom. I can understand that but, we have two totally different personalities. My mom is very small, pretty, smart, and outgoing. She has these big beautiful round hazel eyes, a smile to light up the world, and she has short curly brown hair. Lulu will always be petite and muscular since she comes from a family that isn’t very tall. Most moms have a very fashionable and instyle wardrobe. Well, my mom isn’t like that. Yoga pants, tennis shoes, and a t-shirt is my moms everyday clothing. It may not be all fancy and in style, but that’s just my mom. I may look like my mom, I might not act like her or dress like her but, she is still and perfect inspiration to me.

You always know that one person who has such a kind heart well that’s my mom. She is so helpful when I get sick and, I am very appreciative of that. Whenever I am stuck on homework she is always there to help me especially when I don’t understand. When I had a bad day at school or trouble with friends she is always someone I can talk to, and very kind hearted. I love my mom and I don’t know what I would do without her helpfulness, her smart brain, and her kind heart.
Last year was not the best year for me or my family. I had sculiosis surgery July 14, 2011. After that around August or September I got really sick. I really needed someone at that time and it was my mom. She was always there to boost my confidence up. That was really helpful because I had a hard time doing that myself last year. My mom was so helpful with school work, carrying things for me, and when I needed advice on something. I couldn’t have gone through any of this without my mom. I am so thankful to have her.
I am so blessed to have a mom like I do. She is so helpful, kind and smart. I really admire her helpfulness and her support. Like in school and dance, it really helps to have someone there. I hope to pass on her helpfulness and kindness to others everyday like she does. I don’t know what I would do without my mom. I might take her for granted but there is so much more to her than just taking care of me and my sibiings.