But to me, a Suicide Attempt Survivor, the rain today and the cold tomorrow represent a new chance to make things right in my life and with my family’s life. God has washed away the temptation to end my life so that I may not have to suffer anymore pain. He has frozen the impulse to make it go away quickly. I am now free to experience my children’s milestones and create new memories with them and my husband. That doesn’t mean I won’t battle depression at times. It just means that I will fight harder to quiet the little man so that I can live.
God planted me just the way I am so that I may bloom bright and share my beauty with others. There is a quiet beauty in those of us who battle depression. We see life in different colors than you “normal” people. Things can be brighter and we are on top of the world. We have a hard time expressing the thoughts and feelings whirling around our hearts and minds. Things can also get pitch black to where we freeze and block out the world and it takes all that we have to stand up on our own. But we do. We fight the blackness and show others our blooms. We share our special gifts with others. Sharing is good for us. It validates us. My children and my husband validate me as well. But everyone needs validation outside the home. We warriors must balance our lives. We can get stagnant and that is bad news for us.
For you warriors and all, take the next couple of days to let God wash away the funk of winter and freeze away the ugly thoughts. Bloom like the dogwoods and show others the beauty inside and out. God says your body is your temple. Take care of it. Be a healthier you this Spring. Resurrect yourself, bring that cool person you once knew out and show him/her off.
God wants us to live life to the fullest. He wants to experience the joys and heartaches of life. But He wants us to use Him to battle life and come out warriors who have won the war. Are you a warrior? Are you armed for battle?