He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.
This is probably my favorite song. I heard it for the first time when Dennis and I went to Outback in Mobile. For those who don’t know, Outback is mini JH Ranch. Now I didn’t want to go to this “Jesus Retreat”. I’m Episcopalian. We don’t do this stuff. We don’t wave our hands in the air and say Amen out loud. I was out of my element. So I thought. It was nothing like imagined. Great music and incredible speakers abound. I left on the mountain top.
Sunday afternoon I arrived home to 6 loads of laundry to fold and a kitchen that looked like Armageddon had hit. My mother in law stayed with the kids. She did her best with toting four kids around to 10 different places in two days. Bless her heart. By Monday I was overwhelmed with life and back in the valley. I had been hit by a hurricane.
Life is full of many hurricanes through our lives. They can range from Cat 1 to Cat 5. A 6 or 7 might hit as well. When this happens you are so overwhelmed you do not know where to turn. You ask why me? What have I done to deserve this? I am a pretty decent person. I can’t get through this! How can I do this?
Then you search through your devotionals for answers. Certainly God knows the reason for this. Then you see God has a plan. Your minister tells you God has a plan for you. Well that is bunk. I thought God loved me. Why is he doing this to me?
Then a moment of clarity comes; maybe through a verse, prayer or even a song. It gets through that thick skull of yours that God does have a plan. You have no earthly idea what it is. You still don’t know if you will survive this hurricane. You still break down some days. But the days get a little better. Even in the midst of the hurricane you can sense a little peace in your heart, the assurance that “the plan” is in effect.
Where do you go from here while you are riding out the storm? You hold onto that sliver of hope that you will pull through and come out victorious. You hold onto the notion that God has a plan for you and you will survive. Your life will probably be much better on the other side. I hope to see you then, better than ever.